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Total Recall

I managed to get up the hill without dying of exhaustion or overheating and I managed not to be the last one there, so I got a choice of seating. The game is still not very hectic - but I guess it's got time for that later - and I didn't lose any more SAN. In fact, I gained 3%, so I'm back up to 19%. This is all due to the fact that whilst the party were battling the king of fire vampires - my character was completely oblivious to it all. There are times when failing (and in one case fumbling) rolls is actually good :)

On the way back, I was sorely tempted to parp my horn (yah for horny goodness) at majic13 and Lyth, but I noticed some suspicious looking characters lurking about on the street corner. Looked like they were doing some kind of drug deal or something. Either way, I felt making a large amount of noise might risk their ire.

As I hurtled down the highstreet, some car started following me down blaring out loud unrecognisable music. I dunno why exactly, but this brought out memories I have of going to the pub with my parents as a small child. The smell of cigarette smoke and beer. The loud music. The taste of bottled coke. Crappy little arcade machines that I desparetely wanted to play, but didn't have any money to do so. Ultimately, a cool memory, but one that I'd forgotten I had.

My memory sucks...lots. My entire life is stored away in there somewhere, but I've not got an index. Stuff just randomly floats to the surface now and then. Usually it's food/smell related. I can be walking along and suddenly I'll get hit by the memory of some really yummy food. It can be very random and very annoying. There are some memories I wish I could remember.

It took a lot of concentration whilst getting back to remember my first real kiss. I can't remember much of it though, which just shows how bad my recall is. What I do remember is good though. I can remember the tingly numbness of my lips and the smell of cigerette smoke in her hair (we'd been clubbing). I can't recall enough of it though to remember what it fully felt like, which is bugging me. Good excuse to find someone to practice more on I guess...


if it's any consolation my memory index is pretty poor also. I can't remember my first kiss. at all. :(

I guess it's easier to recall stuff that happens so rarely - there's only been one other kiss since and it wasn't at all similiar. Less chance for them to cloud each other out.

the memory area of your brain is right next to the smell area of your brain which is why smell/tastes are so effective at bringing back memories.

and yeah, indexing sucks, but do you really want easy recall of ALL your memories - I sometimes rant and get mizzy about stuff i have remembered where I was dumb, or stupid, or mean or picked on and I don't like that.

Bad memories v good memories - or just the joy of random memories.

Actually I would like to remember all the bad stuff too. It'd help me get over and learn from them. Making the same mistakes twice would just mean I'd end up with more bad memories.